loveschildren | (no subject)

Yes, that's a good expression.

[Enjoying watching this play out on Mika's face.]

[ ----------maybe if he stayed, he could have said something to krul. maybe he would have died back there like he should have instead of becoming a monster. these are thoughts he'd never, ever even thought of having before, but -- what kind of family member just leaves like that... ? ]

You were so easily abandoned, after all, you and your whole family left for dead without a backwards glance.

---My whole family was dead.

[ i wasn't, though. i wasn't and he actually ran when i told him to run - ]

Doesn't a part of you wish he'd stayed? Just long enough for you to die at least. But he couldn't even wait for that.

I didn't want him to see me die, and more were coming. ...But he actually left. He actually -

He left you to die alone, and instead you became a vampire.

...I became a monster because of him.

That's exactly right. You did. Don't you hate him?

...I hate him.

How would you make him pay?

I don't know.

He claims to love you.

He does.

Doesn't that just anger you, Mika?

...He left me. He left me but ---

[ he doesn't want to feel like this. these feelings are wrong. every part ofhim knows that yuu did nothing wrong, but ------ he can't help it. he has to hate him and it hurts. ]

Shh, kiss me.

[ he hates this. he doesn't want to feel this way -- these negative feelings inside of him make him want to vomit. yuu did nothing wrong. there's nothing to hate him for. he did nothing wrong he did nothing-------- he did nothing, he did nothing and now he's a monster.

--he tips his head back up, pressing his lips chastely to felid's. ]

[He runs his hands up Mika's back, amused and sliding his tongue against his lips, seeking to deepen that kiss.]

[ there's no command, but he knows what to do. mika opens his mouth, accepting the tongue and depth of the kiss with a soft sound. ]

[He kisses him deeply, tongue hot and wet as he explores Mika's mouth, secure in his full control--he's always secure in himself, but now it's even more amusing, honestly it's a shame it's only temporary.]

[ he hates this. he's always hated this, but -- mika knows what he has to do to survive. he's always known. his mind doesn't need to be controlled to know to press into the kiss, to rock his body into felid's with need --- to play it up like he actually wants him. ]

[He knows damn well Mika doesn't want it, that's what makes it more fun. Watching Mika pretend something they both know isn't true. He laughs into the kiss and settles his hands on Mika's ass, grinding obligingly against him.]

[ what a disgusting, disgusting laugh. he bites down on felid's bottom lip -- not trying all that hard to be gentle. ]

[He laughs again and yanks Mika back by the hair, dragging his nails sharply down the boy's chest.]

Pluck out your right eye, Mika.