[He can't take it. He's sure he's going to lose himself sooner than later at this rate, and with a very, very long life in front of him that's not a good prospect at all. He'll find a way to cope. That's just how the mind works. But doing so is likely to be a matter of going insane in whatever way his mind needs to make him function, and he doesn't want that. Right now, he's clinging to his idea of who he is as tightly as he can, even knowing it's just a matter of time before it slips away from him. It could be months or years before that happens, and it'll be torture until then, but if he stays with Felid it's inevitable that Glen will have to become a completely different person.
But he'll fight it as long as he can, and part of that is refusing to give in to Felid, even though he wants and needs that comfort desperately. He'll starve himself, because what he really needs isn't in this place.]
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[He can't take it. He's sure he's going to lose himself sooner than later at this rate, and with a very, very long life in front of him that's not a good prospect at all. He'll find a way to cope. That's just how the mind works. But doing so is likely to be a matter of going insane in whatever way his mind needs to make him function, and he doesn't want that. Right now, he's clinging to his idea of who he is as tightly as he can, even knowing it's just a matter of time before it slips away from him. It could be months or years before that happens, and it'll be torture until then, but if he stays with Felid it's inevitable that Glen will have to become a completely different person.
But he'll fight it as long as he can, and part of that is refusing to give in to Felid, even though he wants and needs that comfort desperately. He'll starve himself, because what he really needs isn't in this place.]
I don't need you.